Smoking Killed the teen dream, deal with it.

Things are truly better. Time heals all wounds. 

Last night Amanda, Wes, Krystl, Eddie, and I went to see the movie Easy A and I have to say it’s adorable. It’s got sass, comedy, big name stars, sexy ladies, cute boys, drama drama drama, and a nice plot. It was well done. I laughed a lot, as I expected to. I do feel that the trailer gave away too many of the funnies. I plan to own this once on DVD. It’ll sit on the self next to Mean Girls, Clueless, and Jawbreaker.

After the movie we stood around and chatted. Amanda and Wes told me I had to quit smoking because they were. In all honesty I am not sure I am ready, but I am giving it a shot. I notice that I smoke more around them because they are some of my only friends that smoke. Now that they aren’t, the car rides won’t be bad! So today on the way to work I smoked my last cigarette. I’ll keep you all posted on how that goes. :) 

xoxo,
d. 

Colorful Inception.

Some say that you don’t dream in color. I know I didn’t. Life had no goal or plan till I met you. Maybe this is my late night thought process to you, and you’re asleep. Maybe I’m just filled with love and thanks and this is my way to express it, again.

I just saw inception. Great movie. Don’t really care to explain it to you, nor do I want to ruin it… but it is an amazing movie. Go see it. I feel like this movie shows how my mind works. I work on many layers. My mind is always moving, even when time is going by in slow motion. It’s amazing. That was a SN (side note) by the way.

Back on topic. See. My mind ran! ahh! 

Seriously. I remember a time when life was black and white and so were my dreams. Now I see a future so vivid in color I run for it. Life is amazing that way. How things happen for reasons that make no sense till chapters down the road. Eddie told me his master plan that involved me. I’m moved. He is simply amazing. That man is filled with love, understanding, and intelligence beyond words. No one will ever fully understand that, but me. A thank you is not nearly enough. Today I found myself wrapped up in my head and more than usual. I’m frustrated on many levels, but then I saw it clearly. Every sign on this road points in the right direction. I’m moving forward and never behind. No stops on this road. I’m excited.

When I look at all of you I look deep inside. I find meaning. I make connections. I wonder. I then try to extract the best in everyone. I care, too much. I’ve realized that sometimes not caring is the best policy. I need to work on that more, for myself. I found my first subject in this. One of many, I am sure. So. Moving forward I will not care about him anymore. I don’t care where he is, who he is with, or what he is doing. Why? Because I see that he never cared. I see this all in full color and it is filled with red. Before the black and white was hard to see through. Ha.

The movie is amazing. Eddie is very important. Work does not matter. I have a plan. I will execute this. My path is there, I just need to walk it. I miss and love my mother. I will find power in my prayer, tonight. I am done with him.

xoxo,
D.