Enough silence.
Disclaimer: I am sick (literally, a cold) and find myself in bed hungry but no taste for anything. There will be spelling errors. Carry on.
Hi. For a month I worked my butt off in a routine and schedule and diet. I found some results, but really it wasn’t a number game for me. It was a ‘wow I feel amazing’ game. Then something happened inside my heart and I was broken. I didn’t want to blog about it, or make a video. Maybe I should have? The thing is… I guess I wasn’t ready to share my darkness. The road block that hit me in the chest; hard.
Where do I really start from there? here?
First - I miss having a routine work out. I’ve spent the last few weeks doing a lot of outside work (landscaping the house!) and it has felt great. I’ve been surrounded by a lot of great fun. However, I really need to be more physical. I’ve gone on a few lengthy walks here and there, but this should be routine right now. Changing that Tuesday. Getting back in the game. I miss feeling that work out high!
Next - I have to say this because it is on my mind. It has been on my mind for the past few months, and slowly it has festered. I cannot deal with people who talk the talk but do not walk the walk. I cannot deal with the ‘yay! look what I’ve done!’ and they haven’t really done it, at all. Several of my friends have been inspirational in their routines of working out and eating healthy. It is very inspiring. I’m talking real in person best friends, to coworkers, to old friends that have moved away, to you all…. my twitter/facebook/tumblr people. It is amazing. I just hope that you’re doing it for you, for your health, and not for the pat on the back. There is one person whom I love and think is so wonderful, but they are doing that. Faking it and not ‘til they make it, but…. just faking it. They are cheating themselves and that is the tragedy. I do not think that they see it. Maybe they will read this and realize it is them I am speaking about. I’m not being mean, just real. I don’t think anyone else in your life is being real. Ever. Just saying.
And finally - as for my heart. It’s healing quite well. I find with each experience I learn a valuable lesson. This one is one I will hold forever in so many ways.
Always remember: you cannot force change, honesty, and love.
I’m back on the road to being ‘me’ and for the first time in a good month or two, it feels nice.
xoxo,
D.
Kelly Osbourne is in shape and showing off!
Kelly Osbourne is on the cover and inside the new SHAPE Magazine in stores now. She looks so amazing. I am so happy to see so much health, happiness, and success to a much deserving beautiful woman and friend!
I’m inspired.
A weight-loss update.
Without much effort, and clearly this number would be much lower with the effort I want to put in, I am down another 9 pounds. I started at 287 in January, and now as of July 8th I find myself at 231. That is a loss of 56 pounds. I’m back on my path. Water, water, water. 1500 calories or less. Tomorrow starts the treadmill and tanning routine. Today I went for two separate and amazing walks. I went to Centennial park in downtown Nashville with Amanda. We walked a few laps. We talked. It was hot outside. I feel amazing. After driving around with Amanda and house shopping in the trendy East Nashville I ended up at the house that Eddie is house sitting for. We took their dog for a walk. This was the second amazing walk. I got to spend some time with Eddie just pouring out my heart, something I will do here… soon. Promise.
All-in-all, 56 pounds. I’m proud, but far from finished. I fully expect some party when I get to 200. js. I want a cake, that day. LOL. Be on standby, friends.
