Work, friends, and summer.

I don’t really talk about work in my writings, but all I have done lately is work. So all I can write about is working. Here goes:

I am fully enjoying the changes around me at work. I am seeing teammates push themselves. I am watching people grow and move into new positions. I am sad to see some people go. It’s funny how much work becomes a second home. I’ve been working a lot of over time lately because the business needed it. I’m proud of the people I am assisting. It’s all a little over whelming, but manageable. I am looking at myself in a mirror and I like what I see. I’ve grown up. I’m looked to for guidance and I am given respect. That’s nice. I hope everyone I know is growing and learning in their current positions and striving to get to that next level.

On a side note - I’ve learned that I am a very emotionally driven person. I’ve always known that, but never knew that while my emotions are in full gear I sometimes forget others can be the same way. I never want to step on someone else’s emotions. At the same time I can’t ignore mine. It’s all about balance and understanding. You have to balance your emotions and at the same time realize others around you are playing the balance game, too. With all of that you have to be understanding of this game, of your emotions, and completely understanding of others. If you don’t know these things you can hurt yourself further, and most surely the people you care most for.

This summer has been a wild ride. It’s been the best, but a wild one at that. With summer coming to an end and people bidding off to new jobs, school, and preparing for fall… I find myself a little sad. I’ve had a lot of fun adventures with everyone around me.

I look at Tyler - someone that I’ve known for years, but never really knew too personally. This summer he spent many Friday nights with me and Amanda. I have fully enjoyed each time I’ve seen him. We’d all drink, laugh, and sometimes I’d be crying - but we did it together and had so much fun doing so. I am going to miss him. I am so very thankful that he was here this summer and that I was apart of his time here.

None of that wouldn’t have been possible without Amanda. She’s someone that I fully respect and love. She talked with me the other night and as she talked I just smiled inside. She’s the most level headed woman I know. She just took a situation, analyzed it, and made it make sense from multiple points of view. She’s an angel for doing that. I am honored to call her my best friend.

I’ve seen Chris more this summer than I have in a long time, and a lot of time he has been on the road with his band, Framing Hanley. I love him ridiculously. He’s grown in so many ways, and has a focus and drive for life that I respect. Watching him and Krystl makes my heart melt. They are perfect for each other. I enjoy spending time with him and Krystl because they are the realest of real. We’ll do dinners and play games, talk for hours. I know that no matter what they will always be there, even when away. 

Boys, boys, boys. It’s funny how love, lust, and flirting is always a big topic in summer. This year was the first year that I gave in. I ran with it. I realized that I needed to open myself up for it. I was surprised. I was happy. I cried. I was hurt. I had fun. I learned. I loved. I have never regretted a single moment of it with anyone. I’m proud of myself. I’ve stepped up, and out, and will continue to grow and experience everything I deserve. So many people sit around and wait. Not me. I’m running and dragging someone along for the ride. I’m worth it. Promise.

I sit in bed tonight thinking through all the memories. The things I’ve written before. The things I haven’t put on here. The moments alone with each person in my life - from work friends, to boys, to best friends, and friends of friends. Sometimes mixing all of those people in the same room. I am truly blessed to have these events in my life. The laughs. The tears. The parties. The adventures. The hugs. The photos. I am reflective. I should do this more - sit here and just take a moment to remember, to think, to smile. This week has been long and hard. There have been events that have weighed down my heart, my soul, and my mind. I am fine at the end of the night, at the end of this week. I am moving forward with a smile and a plan.

I couldn’t have done or felt any of these things without my co-workers, Eddie, Amanda, Chris, Krystl, Tyler, Wes, Jarrod, Andrew, Adam, Heather (both of them!), my mother, and so many others. Oh, even a little cornbread mixed in. ;)

I promise I will continue to write, and hopefully more often. Sometimes, even as open as I am, I need a moment to not write. Lately that was the case. I was either too tired, or too upset. I never want to publish something that I can’t undo. I have a lot of goals to meet for work. I have a lot of talks with friends that need to happen. I have a list to make (I’ll explain this more in another post, soon). I have a lot of responsibilities to take care of.

Until next time.
xoxo,
D.