It hurts just typing these words; not my heart, but all these muscles in my arms. haha.
Ok, so today I worked out with Rachel. Something I love about Rachel is that she knows what I need to be motivated; music. We pop on Pandora and off we go. 15 different arm and ab exercises. We did the set of 15 twice. Some of these looked so simple; some so hard. They all made me burn and sweat; which is great!
At one point I really wanted to give up. We were nearing the end of the workout and I was just tired. Tired in so many ways but most of all tired of being frustrated with my body. That feeling of “I CAN DO THIS” but your body shakes and you collapse. I know in time I will only be able to do more and more, but right now my mind wants more and more and the body is screaming. I wanted to cry. I didn’t. Rachel (and JT was home at this point, so he was there timing us and encouraging) said what I needed to hear; only a few more. We’re minutes away from done. I finished.
On top of today, and yesterdays work outs after a 3 mile walk, and Monday’s first workout… I am REALLY sore. Sore all over. I feel like I was in a car accident. Only there aren’t any cuts or bruises so people go “oh my, you ok?” now I just verbalize so people know. HA!
I’m really amazed at the amount of people who are encouraging me. Twitter friends, Facebook friends (from family to high school to coworkers and best friends), emails, messages, texts… even from people whom I’ve met through various social media websites and apps. Amazing. It’s a feeling of “wow. thanks for taking the time to say something nice” and a big feeling of “people ARE watching, DO care. I HAVE to continue”… not only for me, but to inspire others.
I’m starting this routine. It’s all new and fresh. I’m excited to see how and where this journey takes me. The feeling of happiness is pumping through my veins. The feeling of accomplishment is too. The most important thing I feel right now is inspired and determined.
I’m going to weigh myself and measure myself on Sunday. Also going to take some photos with clothes, and without. Let’s see how THAT goes.
Good night & love you all,
D.
After a certain someone (*cough* Dina Lohan *cough*) leaked the cover of Lindsay Lohan’s new Playboy issue onto the web, Playboy is now freaking out over the fact that HOLY CRAP! People can see Lindsay naked on the internet! Which you totally couldn’t do before by Googling, oh say,…
Wow.
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